Im in DLE now, writing this.
I got up today really not motivated to go to the gym, but i got ready in time to leave home with my mom. I walked from her workplace to the gym, about 1km or so, and arrive. My trainer gave me arms and ab workouts today. Today I admitted to him that I do see a difference in my muscle definition, especially around my arms. not sure if its very motivating but its nice to see. we also recorded a video for his instagram featuring my shaking quaking arms in a bench press. after completing my exercises, the gym was empty, and he also had to leave; he dropped me of at flow. I thought that was really kind of him, he’s actually a really kind guy. I then proceeded to spend almost 3 hours sitting in Flow. I carried my laptop so i did work while I waited, worked on the collaboration page of my updated website, and some other misc stuff. Ive had an issue with my mobile data for a month, they were unable to solve over the phone. This was my second time in store, but the lady today who helped me (she was actually really friendly) she confirmed that they would have to give me a new postpaid sim to replace my hybrid one, and that I would indeed loose my previous plan, which was the joy of my internet life. I had unlimited* data for 3700 jmd, and the new plan they have costs 5200 jmd i believe, so i have to pay more now. That went smoothly, as smoothly as being in public with other people can be. Ill never understand the nerve some people have to play their personal media outloud in a public shared space. I got my new sim and they are even going to reimburse me for the bill a paid three days ago. so that was nice. I decided after emerging from the stale indoors to go to DLE cafe and have lunch (something i would never have thought to do before recently) and I had a plantain bbq bean wrap, sweet potato fries, chips and hummus, and chai tea. Was this a financially wise decision, no, but do I feel better not being in my room, seeing the faces of other people, doing light work in air conditioning? YES. honestly i wish i made enough to eat at restaurants, or spend more time outside. but unfortunately staying home is the only way i can really go days without spending money. I cook my own food, and i dont have opportunities to spend as much as i have when im out and about. But staying cooped up at home, i’ve proven, really diminishes my mental health. Yet another way being less affluent costs you in non-financial ways. After one of my best friends suggested to me, during an depressive episode of mine, that getting out of the house could help, i remembered learning about how psychologists were able to predict depression in people based on their location data, ie. how little they moved about or stayed home. Thats really when i decided to start the gym, and honestly that has helped me in so many ways, not just physically (my pain is much more manageable) but also mentally. I still have little period of sadness, but not the deep lull that i have been accustomed to since high school and being diagnosed. Im still in DLE, food half digested. I really enjoyed my service here, the waitress has such a warm disposition, the food was great and I was contemplating if i should call my driver or my mom. called my mom… I arrived home, got called on the way about work, called back, then called my wife then spoke about work, and then called my client back to discuss my role. My mom asked me to husk out some coconuts, which i did, and now I’m tired and wanting to sleep. My room needs cleaning, and I have work tasks to organize. Today was actually a very good day for me, one of my most positive. Looking forward to tomorrow, and thats a first for me in a long while.